Cheated.

I'm going lesbian.

Alright, I'm not.

But I feel like it.

Yeah it hurts.

I have all these emotions running through my head.

Am I not good enough?

Am I too weird for my own good?

I want to write cuss words on pottery and smash it on the ground.

Or give it as a gift.

Sixteen and I already know my future.

Destined to be a cat lady.

With 79 cats.

I'll speak cat language and eat cat food.

Oh and live in a swamp.

Of course.

Sometime's I just feel like there's no hope for me and people with penises.

Insensitive? yeah slightly.

I think I'm pretty enough.

To snag a boy.

I mean I held hands with a guy last night.

I liked it.

We didn't kiss and it was perfect.

Why can't I find love?

Should I quit looking.

See what happens.

But I need to be proactive about it.

This is making my tummy hurt.

And my head.

I heard that there is a soul mate for everyone.

Why am I still alone then?
Maybe my standards are too high.

Maybe if I dated guy's who weren't "cool".

Guys who I'm not physically attracted to.

Different races.

Forget that.

I'm getting my blonde kids.

Not going to lower my standards.
Ironic placement of sentence.

When its the time for me to be in love, God will help me.

I won't change to get a guy.

Oh I guess I'll wait.

Because I'm holding out for a hero.

In the mean time. I'll stick with my BEST FRIEND/SISTER.
She's a 100% homophobe.

{Peace. Love. And Granola Bars}

What if I fall and hurt my self?

Just So you know, I lay in bed at night and make up hypothetical solutions between you and I.

And no, it's not creepy.

Song: Hazy-Rosi Golan

{Peace. Love. And Granola Bars}

Quick thought

I'm awake at 1:00 in the morning listening to white dress by ben rector(his voice is heaven on earth, its like a certain inappropriate "O" word for your ears)...I might have a crush on him. You know, I think it could work between us. We believe in the same things, look good together, and both believe in love. I just have to meet him.

Oh and today I couldn't get any kids in the game of life in adult roles, so I kidnapped. 

Sometimes I wish I  could know who I was going to marry, and not have to deal with all of this wondering. 

anyway..I am up doing accounting online. Yay for missing school. Thought of the night.

Love makes the world go round...well love and gravity.

I'm going to write tomorrow:) 

Yes I would also like to say that life is now complete due to the fact I got my j-dawg:) Beef with onions,special sauce, and pickles.

P.S. I love my Pumpcake Nolle:)

i LOVE j-dawgs. 

{peace, love, and granola bars}