Still a hopeless romantic

But sometimes the timing is off. There are also the wrong kind of love. Where it's not pure unadulterated love. You realize that there is a spark, but someone is in it for the wrong reason. Be you or the other person. Maybe you just want so desperately to be in love, that you will take anyone who will have you. But that's not fair to you or the person. And you lead them on even though  you don't mean to. But you feel so desperate that sometimes leading them on seems like the best idea. You tend to over analyze, every single word you decipher and try to read into the deeper meaning. Even though the words are meant to be taken at face value.  And you see those couples holding hands. And when other girls tell you the stories about their boyfriends, you just sit and smile while you're in your own mind. So  I'll sit and wait for him to come along. And I'll accept the heartbreak on the way.  

{sweetdreams. Day dreams and night dreams alike}

hopeless romantic

I'm the girl whose parents got divorced and decided to swear off love. Until she realized at the tender age of fourteen while lying in bed, that she is not her parents. The girl who gets butterflies just by making eye contact. Someone who will look at pictures of weddings, and hope that someday she can get a smile on her face due to begin so in love. She has not yet been in love, She's  got almost and maybes and what happened here baby but not a real love. And every time she thinks maybe this could be the one, and it isn't she hurts. Yes, so bad. But she doesn't give up. Even though sometimes when she's in the process of falling, she realizes that she  will most likely get hurt. But she falls anyway, because of that teeny tiny almost invisible chance that maybe this will be the time that is different. That one person, who you know that you want to share your past, present, and future with. There will be that guy who the silences aren't awkward when you're around him. The guy that maybe holding hands with will make you feel like you  can take on the world with. He's out there. He's looking for me. And you  have to believe this. Because trying wouldn't be worth the effort if you didn't believe this. Maybe it's just the  fairytales told a young age that makes all this seem like it could exist. But you realize it's the people you watch who you can tell are in love. The couple who still after twenty five years of marriage still go on dates and call each other baby. And the chances of finding a love like this are slim to none, but maybe just maybe you can defy the odds. You can be that small percent that finds an earth shattering soul breaking love. You know that a love like this is worth fighting for, and once you find it you will do all you can do to not let go. So don't be afraid since you haven't had good examples of love around that it doesn't exist. Realize that you write your own story and you get to pick the ending. Happily Ever After.

{sweetdreams. Day dreams and night dreams alike}

Out of mind. Into my heart.

Yeah we have a fighting chance.

I've got my intuition.

And this time I'm listening to it.

{sweetdreams. Day dreams and night dreams alike}