living in a never ending spring: March 2012

3.26.2012

Everything will be all right

Everything will be all right.

Just breathe.

Breathe.

Everything will be all right.

Just smile.

Smile.

Everything will be all right.

Just listen.

Listen.

Everything will be all right.

Just run.

Run.

Everything will be all right.

Just dream.

Dream.

Everything will be all right.

Just learn.

Learn.

Everything will be all right.

Just love.

Love.

Everything will be all right.

{sweetdreams. Day dreams and night dreams alike}

3.23.2012

Hurricane

you hit me like a hurricane

and i'm standing here with my rainboots and inverted umbrella

unable to distinguish rain from tears.

and you sick bastard;

i'm watching you destroy everything around me

and all i can do is stand here in awe of your beauty.

Want to take a glimpse at my other blog?

The one I made on an impulse for clothes?

Look right here.

I kind of like it and think that you might too.

{sweetdreams. Day dreams and night dreams alike}

3.22.2012

let me go to sleep

What I am I doing right now?

Wishing I was at home in bed.

With some nice music playing.

What am I really doing?

Counting down the nineteen minutes until school end.

{we were channeling our inner ozzy osborne}

Plans?

Hunger games at 6:30.

Yep I got advanced tickets.

I'm pretty cool.

Color Fest on saturday.

Stuff I love?

Seeing my bff Veronica for the first time since November.

Don't ask me how to describe her.

I can't.

Like me.

But Asian.

So cool and awkward and crazy and happy and trying to figure it out.

{we like frizzy hair.alot.}

Boys?

Yeah I think I repel them.

Except I kind of like one.

Maybe I'll say his name on here.

Maybe not.

School?

End of term.

After friday no mos fourth period either day.

Can't wait.

Toodaloo for now.

{sweetdreams. Day dreams and night dreams alike}

3.21.2012

I'm fine now thanks for asking

I should of seen the signs.

Should of read the writing on the wall.

Should of looked past your sweet words that come out of your mouth as easy as the lies.

Listened to the voices.

He's no good for you.

He'll use you and leave you.

No he wouldn't do that.

He loves me.

But he did exactly what they said he would.

I should of listened.

He wanted me for my body.

My dirty words.

I'm not proud of this.

Who's at fault here?

The boy who lied?

Or the girl who gave him the benefit of the doubt?

I am better than you.

And the most frustrating part of this?

I'd go back to him in less than a heartbeat if he asked me too.

I deserve better.

Someone who is proud to be with me.

Someone who realizes the simple beauty in holding hands.

Someone who wants to write me love letters at random times.

Someone who wants to lay in the grass and wish on stars.

Someone who is in it for the right reasons.

Someone who wants to kiss in the rain.

Someone who is content getting coffee, listening to music and not saying a word.

Someone who makes me happy.

I'm sorry he hurt you.

Chin up butter cup.

I've moved on.

And you can too.

{sweetdreams. Day dreams and night dreams alike}

Too busy doing nothing

Oh blog I'm sorry for neglecting you.

I am a horrible parent.

Don't hate me.

I haven't really done anything to exciting.

But I haven't had time to blog.

{yummy tea with orange blossom syrup, lamb with yogurt sauce, and vegetarian grape leafs}

I have gone to color me mine with Nib and painted a coaster set and her a mug.

I have gotten diagnosed with the sinus infection from H-E double hockey sticks.

I have missed school on tuesday due to pre-mentioned sinus infection.

I have drawn tubes of blood.

I have gone to the gym and worked out.

I have missed my sister.

I have gone to saltlake and eaten middle eastern food.

{sweetdreams. Day dreams and night dreams alike}

3.16.2012

A picture is worth a thousand words.

{sweetdreams. Day dreams and night dreams alike}

3.14.2012

i want to quit blogging. quit instagramming. quit facebooking. quit pinteresting. and LIVE. i want to go out doors and lay in the grass that can't make up its mind wether or not to turn green. i want to listen to beautiful music in that grass. i want the sun to kiss me. i want a sunburn. i want. i want to swing on a swing for hours. i want to fly. i want to close my eyes and not think. i want to watch the sunset. i want to dip my feet in freezing cold water and realize how small i am. i want to walk in the river and find the prettiest rocks and slip them into my pocket. i want to dance to the music that no one but the birds can hear. i want to wear a dress and twirl. i want to feel alive.

Isn't it amazing when you come to school and see this?

{sweetdreams. day dreams and night dreams alike}

3.12.2012

My legs come out of hiding

Well I should be doing phlebotomy.

Yep you read right.

I am learning how to draw blood.

With a needle. You moron.

Not with a pencil.

Well I guess I am now...since I'm fillilng out my homework and reading my book.

I got new shorts at gap on saturday night.

I wore shorts for the first time of the year on sunday.

I forgot that its possible to go out without wearing tights.

Or leggings.

Or thermals under jeans.

So please excuse the fat white legs.

On the upside they ARE shaven.

I seem to do that only the first time I show them each year.

Other then that theirs a thin layer of peach fuzz.

{sweetdreams. Day dreams and night dreams alike}

3.08.2012

The future is a scary and beautiful place

2 months. 22 days.

I'll be graduated.

And now I'm not so scared.

I'm looking forward to it.

I've got my options down to 2. And I like both of them.

Option 1

I got accepted to University of Utah. There was an admitted students day on saturday and I went. I was sooooo scared. In fact I was shaking.

But it turned out okay. In fact I fit in. They liked my style of dress, and opinions, and sense of humor. I even reserved a dorm room. A single room. With a single bathroom. I've even started planning how cute its going to look. And where I'm putting each piece of furniture. My coffee pot, microwave, fridge and pull out couch and bed. I'm minorly excited. Like barely. Obviously I'm not telling complete strangers I got a dorm. That'd be weird. {I like to think that random people at the grocery store are not strangers}. I want a ruffly pink and gray bedspread. Its going to be classy and vintage. Oh and major? Undecided.

Option 2

UCLA. If you've talked to me in the last three years, thats what my dream school is. They mail out acceptance letters in 10 DAYS. I am peeing my pants in anticipation. Or sweating abnormal ammounts out of my armpits. Either and or both. Oh dear. HELP. I just want to go to california. I want to be in a place where lots of people are. Where theres the possibility of never running into the same person ever again. Where people have tattos and dreams. Trying to live out their dreams. Even though they might be unrealistic. Like me? My unrealistic dream? I want to be a singer. Like a popstar. We're talking Madonna status here. {if I ever get my throat infection under control}. If I were to get accepted to L.A. I'd live in the dorms. HURRY up with the acceptance letters!!!