dying

Quick post to tell you that I haven't died and dropped off the face of the earth. 

Although I feel as if I'm in the process.

I'm sick, and I will spare you all the gorey details.

Just praying I get better. 

And don't barf on someone while taking my final at BYU. 

Wish me luck.

I'll write more soon

{Peace. Love. And Granola Bars}

coffee and hashbrowns

You know sometimes I don't go to second period because my stomach hurts. And I need coffee. With Presley and Ciel. Love those girls(: Have you ever peanut buttered a vehicle? I'm not opposed to the idea. Especially when the boy driving it is the one who hates me. And probably secretly likes me. Don't worry. I know how it goes. Don't pretend I don't see those looks. Because I may be blonde, but I'm not dumb. And I don't give a crap about it. Peace offering? Friends?  You're going to be the one to make the offer. Good job. You're the one who messed up first. Oh and I guess Rihanna made the right statement "Hate that I love you" well maybe not love. But like. Whatever. Good luck. I'll be waiting. And it better not be over text messages if you want to. Oh and thanks for the sweet rumors you've made up about me. And don't deny your feelings.  Oh and I guess I should put that I don't REALLY hate you. Just got to keep up appearances. How awkward can I make this? Hella. Thats how much.

{Peace. Love. And Granola Bars}

Iceskating +GIngerbread house + Snow = WINTER

Two weekends ago, me, Aubree & Nolle went ice skating at seven peaks arena.

It was so much fun! It was my first time, & I'm admittedly horrible!

But thankfully Nib {Nolle} held my hand.

What are best friends for, right?

All bundled up

Me & David decided that for "family home evening" {because we're SUCH a tight nit family hahahahaha} a gingerbread house would be a good idea.

It was.

{ man=gummy bear}

We ended up with an oil spill, a man drowning, a man in a cage

 A skate boarder getting run over.

A sweet marshmallow snowman

A man getting stabbed.

Oh and Ellis Island. A statue of liberty and a pirate ship with pirates coming to their new life.

And some various other gore. We're admittedly a bit weird.

Yesterday was the second time it snowed this season! {The first was in october}YAY!!!!! I have a STRONG dislike for winter. In my dream world it would be 75 F all the time.

What I love about snow

 Watching snow fall, especially when there's already a few inches on the ground. Watching it fall off the trees. Walking through fresh snow and leaving my mark on the world. Waking up and seeing nothing but crisp clean white. Sledding. Snow men.

What I dislike about snow

The cold that seeps into your shoes and bones. When its a few old days and brown and looks like poop. When it goes all the way upto my birthday.

 Vintage Dress in Jdawgs



 This week I am thankful for:

1. Finding the right presents for everyone for christmas

2. Hair dye & my hair growing long

3. My beautiful Aunt Stacy

4. Joshua Raidin----As proven in this song

5.People with perms, that if you were to pul their hair off the top of their heads, it would reach the ground

6. Granny Panties

7. Four wheel drive

8. Vintage Clothing

9. Fire places

10. New Girl

11. Real live christmas tree at my moms

12. J dawgs

13. The real reason of Christmas. Jesus Christ who came to save us

Cody Simpson is even hotter in cut out form

And of course thankful for this girl

{Peace. Love. And Granola Bars}

Rebellious

I'm rebellious.

Don't worry.

I'm in accounting. 

And blogging.

And I might get killed because of it.

 Although then I'd ruin the teachers christmas sweater.

So maybe I'll live.

{Peace. Love. And Granola Bars}

Headband baby

I dyed my hair...super duper blonde! and I LOVE it! 

I feel so much more myself when my hair is super blonde. 

And yes I can practically hear the dumb blonde jokes starting. Thanks.

And my hair is really hard to tame. 

I call it the beast. Alot.

Sometimes I wish we could have wigs and just have perfect hair all the time.

I didn't have hair till I was like eight months...so I was a head band baby.

Picture is from my first christmas

1995-sixmonths old 

{Peace. Love. And Granola Bars}

Dating defense attorneys

So today me and Nolle went into the orchestra room. We  saw Alex. She said that a defense attorney was an asshole. Nolle said, don't worry we know  a few of them, and I chimed in yeah I've dated some. Alex thought we were talking about defense attorneys. Not so. Thats why I love her.

Oh and little miss rapidly ruining others relationships, STOP. I'm sorry that you're own relationship didn't work out, but don't ruin something good for someone else

 Oh here's what I really wanted to write today.

Its a letter to a guy that I "used" to like. I still do. I know I'm stupid.

I don't let myself think of you. Because what is the use of wishing for the impossible things? You will never love me the way that I want you too. Maybe we are meant to be, but we're both too afraid to shy. I remember staying up nights in a row talking to you. And kissing you. And all  your sweet little nothings that made me twirl like a little girl. I allow myself to think of  you at night. When I'm alone, and I can revel in being alone. I can't be fully into relationships with other guys becasue I am in love with you. Its bad for me, but you're like my drug. I keep on going back to you, if only in my mind. You won't even lok me in the eyes and I wish that you would. I hate seeing you hugging other girls. And the fact that you can be happy when you're not with me. I know I'm brave enough to talk to you, but we agreed not to talk. So I'll keep to hearing about  your life from secondary sources. I'm sorry for being mean. And not fighting my own battles. And being to desperate. And too needy. And weird. And not skinny enough. I wont change for you though. You can love me for who  I am. If you're reading this I just have one thing to say to you. I miss you. And I'm sorry.

Song: Birthday-Jillian Edwards. Sometimes a song sums up how I feel, better then I ever could.

Okay this song is called once should be enough. I couldn't find a good link for birthday. I'll find one.
{Peace. Love. And Granola Bars} 

Same old me

I read somewhere that a girl has five personalities. One when she's with strangers. One when she's with boy's. One when she's with her friends. One when she's with her family. One when she's alone.

Why?

I want to be the same person all the time. I know that the real me is worth sharing. Why should we change when we're around different people? Are we afraid that people won't love us? Are we afraid they'll think we're weird?  

You know if they're going to judge you like that, why would you want to be associated with someone like that?

I know that I sure don't! I want people who love me for me, and not some one that I pretend to be.

And I challenge you to go without make up for a day. Or two. Or three. I went friday and sunday with out make up. And even though I look like a ten year old, au naturale, I feel comfortable in my skin and can be completely confident looking like a ten year old.

Me without makeup:)

Things I'm grateful for this week.

1. The doctor, I have some weird abdomenal pain going on. Went to the doctor. Have more tests today after school. Wish me luck!

2. Having NO cavities.

3. Gloves to keep my hands warm.

4. The opportunity to go on a date on saturday night, with this guy I think is pretty cute.

5. Temporary tatoos

6. Sea monkeys

7. Glowsticks

8. Christmas season

9. Saint Nicks day

10. PIllows. Lots of them. Like 9 a night.

11. My bestfriends Veronica and Nolle

12. My family

13. The knowledge that my savior lives,and died for me. And that he knows what I'm going through

{Peace. Love. And Granola Bars}

Silly Silly Boys

{Peace. Love. And Granola Bars}