Why?

Cool. I'm a complete loser. Blogging holding a fake baby at the vow{movie}_. I have given up on prom. and it makes me cry. But I've gone through much harder things. This still hurts though. Sometimes I wish I knew what gods plan is. I don't understand I had to have my family ripped apart. Why I had to have my innocence taken away by molestation at 11. Why I can't keep friends. Why people don't like me. Why my car got totaled. Why I can't even get asked to prom for the one year i could go. I know everything happens for a reason but I wish i knew what the reason was. Can't something go right for me? Help god. I'm lost and tired. I try to be happy but it's do hard.